Happy Birthday DS1

Posted on 21st December 2010 in birth/ birthday/ child/ diabetes/ fainting/ family/ gestational diabetes/ pregnancy/ SCBU/ shadow of the moon

Happy Birthday DS1

My boy is 11 – 22nd Dec, officially at 10.12pm – but he assures me it’s ok to have presents in the ¬†morning!

My boy is wonderful, I know we all love our children but he really is! He has a depth of maturity that still shocks me, yet he has a playful sense of humour and is a happy, sunny boy.

He is clever (cleverer than me most of the time), he questions things that I just take for granted and seems to have an unquenchable thirst for knowledge. Yet he isn’t superior or smug, he is gentle and self effacing. It was he who prompted my post about the shadow on the moon – a question he asked at age 5.

He likes reading, drawing, building amazing things from LEGO, making paper aeroplanes (often balancing them on one side to ensure they fly how he wants), playing DS/PS3/Wii games, watching The Simpsons, comedy in general and CHOCOLATE!

He is also a complete pedant, which I just adore.

I did good with that boy :) *beams with pride*

 

His life didn’t start smoothly, the birth ‘went wrong’, after finding out late that I had Gestational Diabetes they decided to induce me on my due date. I clearly wasn’t ready to give birth and despite them trying 3 times to induce me Monday, 3 more times Tuesday and a membrane sweep first thing Wednesday, there was still no action! I was 3 cm dilated by Monday night and pretty much stayed there.

Wednesday ended for me as he was placed in my arms and the last thing I remember is someone shouting “She’s 80 over 50″

I didn’t see my son again until the Friday afternoon, Christmas Eve.

I’d lost so much blood that I couldn’t sit up without passing out. For my own reasons I refused a blood transfusion. Because of the diabetes DS1 had been taken straight down to SCBU, then because I was ill they kept him down there.

I did try and get down there once (2 floors away, might as well have been on Mars) but I passed out.

I can remember laying on the ward, the only ‘mother’ there who didn’t have a baby. I felt so confused. So alone. It was like I was being punished. Until on the Friday afternoon a nurse breezed in and said jokingly “oh haven’t you got a baby?” and I said “I don’t know.”

She was horrified that I hadn’t been taken to see him, she was horrified that no one had given me a photo of him.

When my husband (who had been down to see the baby every day) showed up, she was with him, with a photo and a wheel chair and I finally got taken to see him. Sitting upright that long was a struggle, but it was worth it.

He looked a bit of a fraud in SCBU though – at 8lb13 he looked big enough to eat the other babies!

I was terrified that the separation would affect how I felt about him. Or how he felt about me. But it didn’t. I love him so much, I’m so proud of who he is and I’m so proud of who he’ll become.

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8 Comments

  • Reply Becky 21st December 2010 at 8:58 pm

    can’t imagine how that must have been for you. I was lucky to be handed both babies in the operating theatre after each CS I had to have! Congrats on his b’day

  • Reply Bob Greig 21st December 2010 at 9:03 pm

    You always write and tweet with such warmth about your boys. Always a joy to read!

    Your sons are lucky boys to have a Mum like you….I guess they know that though…

    Bob X

    • Reply mrsljhall 21st December 2010 at 9:11 pm

      Thank you Bob, I’m lucky to have them, they’re great boys. And your girls are very lucky to have a Dad like you x

  • Reply Kate 21st December 2010 at 9:28 pm

    What a gorgeous post! And such a gorgeous boy. He obviously knew how much you fought to see him and how much he is loved.

    Happy Birthday for tomorrow!
    X

    • Reply mrsljhall 21st December 2010 at 9:32 pm

      Thank you Kate – just read your tweet – how awful! It’s makes me so cross that this wasn’t a ‘one off’, just shouldn’t ever have been allowed to happen and I’m sorry it happened to you too xx

  • Reply TheMadHouse 21st December 2010 at 9:43 pm

    He sounds wonderful and you are right all children are precious. But what a start you had with him. I can not imagine what you went through

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